If not now... When?

I am shaking the dust off my blog: ‘Greywolff Dancing’. What is it about? I don’t exactly know… We shall find out. I will observe & reflect as I wander through my multi-layered life. I will pose many more questions than answers. I am not seeking or offering knowledge, I am seeking the essence of being alive, the nectar. Heart, Spirit and the weaving web of connection. 

I have offered attempts at writing in many different formats in the past. I have tended to have two different experiences. One is I start and never finish or follow through because ‘It is not good enough’. The other is I never start because ‘It is not the right time’. I am done with this. If not now… When? And I am at a choice point in my life… I have been letting go of many things. Making choices. This leaves some time and energy for the next expression of my dharma (purpose in life) and writing (out loud) will be an excellent tool to dig deep and plant some seeds. I am excited to see what sprouts. 

I just arrived at Harmony Hill Retreat Center where I am faculty. Tomorrow I will begin three days of co-facilitating a retreat for people living with cancer. I am here with some of my closest friends in a place that sings to my soul. A perfect place to begin this journey. 

The attached photo’s are screenshots from a short film that was just released. This is me. Walking with fire. Agni Melee Purohitam. I surrender to the fire of transformation. More about these photos and the film in my next post… For now, a shower and my cozy bed that looks out to the saltwater is calling. Let it begin. So Be It. 

(Screenshot photo from the film 'Dear Guardians' by Ian MacKenzie) 

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