My story of ‘Dancing with The Triple Spiral’ is a personal Journey through ‘the interim time’ and facing, understanding then ultimately dancing with (integrating) my Shadows, my deepest wounds, my deepest fears.
And…. It is a story of a living breathing human being… A ‘perfectly imperfect man’ who I fell in love with. Integrating the Shadow Dance came first… Integrating my experience with the man, came later.
The Winter Solstice 2014 I made a Facebook post sharing my love for him...
It has been almost a year since he ran out of my life. I have been asked many times, ‘Did you ever see him again’?
And what then is the greater pain? To not be loved... Or perhaps is it a much greater pain to not have our love received...
Our deepest wounds often begin in childhood. These places of woundedness create a groove or a place of damage in our psyche and when something similar occurs, the new experience flows easily into the old groove, just like a river through a canyon. Over time, they frame our own personal belief system about life and inform us of what we believe about ourself. As they originate in wounds, these inner beliefs are often distorted and unhealthy. A river flowing takes the path it knows best, continually carving the grooves of the canyon ever deeper.
... I fell in love with a perfectly imperfect human being.
(Part one, click here)
The death of a Beloved life partner or any ‘broken Heart’ is trauma attached to love. While I am speaking to my experience after the death of my husband, many relationships end in trauma not associated with death. One partner ‘walking away’ can also create trauma. This trauma can contribute to post traumatic stress, or what I call Love Traumatic Stress.
(PS... A year later...)
This was the beginning of my Triple Spiral Dance which became a powerful solitary Dance
into the center of My Shadows.
In other words: Be careful for what you ask for:
(Never be afraid to let go of who you are...
for what you may become)
As you will surely get it!